As usual, i'm getting fuck up by school as days goes by.

Got back my O level mother tongue results. As usual i got a C6 -.- everyone was happy enjoying getting good grades, why cant i get a good grade like how others did? Prelims is just next friday and i till now haven even start revising. I had already made my decision and which is going to ITE next year instead of a Polytechnic which i wish to get in to. I have totally given up hope for my studies. I just cant memorise a single bit. What i have learnt today i will eventually forget it the next day. How can i go on like this?

School is really a fuck up place. Although my teachers have high hopes on me but in the end i disappoint them. Every time in school i try my best to give me 100% attention to all my subjects lesson so that i could remember what the teacher had taught me.

Its been almost a year and exams are just round the corner. Actually my class people are getting better now not like the past where they disturb people for no reasons. I can see that everyone in my class is putting effort to study hard for the upcoming O level exam.

My teachers always ask things about me like how is my studies etc but actually i did not even study -.- my form teacher made the effort to do a study timetable for me but i just cant follow it. Everyday after school then have in focus. By the time infocus finish its already 4.30 and when i reach home is already almost 6. Do you think i can follow the timetable? obviously its no. After getting the mother tongue results i actually went moodless. Everyone in my class that scored no that good grades also turn moodless.

After prelims will be O level. I swear that i will get into ITE higher nitec. I already give up hope in studies totally cannot be bothered by it. The only time i study which is during lessons. When i reach home i already tired like what already how to study?

I got nothing more to say and i shall end here.

Til then bye.